conqueringmynightmareweekend

So the crying described in my last post definitely happened. Like most crying spells, it was unsolicited, fought, and in the lisa v. tears battle, tears won. As soon as I let it happen though, I felt so much better. Actually, I felt better than better--I felt ready to stop allowing myself feel like a victim and to take control of the situation by changing my perspective. Yes, this weekend has sucked....but that doesn't mean I have to let it get the best of me or ruin the remainder of my weekend.

As we speak, I'm putting on running clothes and brewing a ridiculous amount of coffee in my french press. After banging out a few miles on a treadmill for my sanity, I plan use caffeine-induced superpowers to work through the night until everything I need to do is finished. By the time I go to bed, I'll be done with what I have to do and be able to do what I choose to do after I wake up. No more victimization, no more resentment. That ability to say that is definitely something worth working for.

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